The actor tells how he lives his illness in his new book “There is no time like the future”, which goes on sale on November 17
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Michael J. Fox spoke of an episode related to his health that marked him forever (AFP)
Michael J. Fox revealed the painful setback that led to the “darkest moment” of his life. In an interview with People for the cover story, the “Back to the Future” star , who made his Parkinson's diagnosis public in 1998, told about the setback in his health that led him to question his optimism and how he regained the desire to live.
In 2018, a non-cancerous tumor on Fox's spine was growing rapidly and causing him excruciating pain throughout his body. “I was on my way to paralysis if they didn't operate on me immediately, ” Fox, 59, told the aforementioned publication. However, the surgery to remove it was risky. The tumor “was contracting the [spinal] cord, so they had to be very careful when removing it so they didn't do more damage,” explained the interpreter.
Fortunately, the operation was successful and Fox began a tough four-month process in which he had to learn to walk again. Thinking the worst was behind him, he went on vacation with his family and returned alone to his apartment in New York City so he could film a cameo in a Spike Lee movie the next day.
But on the morning of filming, Fox fell in the kitchen and broke his arm. “That was definitely the darkest moment of my life,” admitted the Hollywood star, who details the event in her new book, No Time Like the Future , which goes on sale November 17. There, the Canadian actor tells how he lives with Parkinson's, a disease he has suffered since 1991 and with which he has struggled for almost 30 years.
“I was leaning against the kitchen wall waiting for the ambulance, and I felt that I had reached the lowest point, I began to question everything, and I told myself that I could no longer face things with optimism, that there was no side positive, that it was all negative, that it was all just grief and pain, '”recalled the interpreter, who was 29 when he received the news of his illness.
Suddenly, Fox was terribly unable to think optimistically, an attitude that had long encouraged him. He even feared that he was not qualified to offer hope to others going through the same thing as him. “Between Parkinson's, my back, my arm… I know it doesn't compare to what many people experience, but I didn't know how to inspire others to look to the future in a bright way. I didn't know how to tell them: 'Things are going to be fine,' ”he said.
“The copies of my book 'No Time Like the Future' (There is no time like the future) have arrived. Very anxious for everyone to read it”, announced Michael J. Fox on his Instagram account (@realmikejfox)
His challenge of learning to walk again and a devastating fall almost caused him to give up his optimism. Fortunately, in the months it took him to recover, the actor changed his perspective and found happiness again. “That optimism came back when I started to be grateful, and also accept what happened to me. Also, I started looking to the future and enjoying the things I have, and I felt that I could move on.
In his book, the actor shares with readers one of his great lessons: “You learn very quickly what you can control and what you can't. The only answer is to accept it. These are the principles that I practice every day: acceptance and gratitude.
“Optimism is really rooted in gratitude,” he said. “Optimism is sustainable when you return to gratitude, and what follows is acceptance. Accept that this has happened. It doesn't mean that you can't push yourself to change. It doesn't mean you have to accept it as a punishment or a penance, just put it where it belongs and then you can move on. “
The actor also confessed that the disease has taken its toll on him. “My short-term memory is destroyed,” he told People . “I always had a great command to memorize my lines. And I had some extreme situations in the last works that I did. It was tough, ”he admitted. While memorizing scripts becomes increasingly difficult, spend your time writing.
The actor with Tracy Pollan and his four children (@realmikejfox)
Some time ago, Fox revealed that he tried to cover his suffering with alcohol. It is that when he was diagnosed with Parkinson's, he admitted that he wanted to get drunk until he reached “a point of indifference” to cope with the situation. In that sense he said: “I have to be very careful not to violate the principles by which I came to be sober.”
The actor, who turns 60 next year, focuses on time with his children and his wife, Tracy Pollan, whom he married in 1988. The couple have 31-year-old Sam, twins Aquinnah and Schuyler, both 25, and Esmé, 19.
“It's not that I wasn't sincere before, but my gratitude is deeper now, for having gone through the darkest times,” he said. And as you continue to live with Parkinson's disease, you emphasize that it is thriving in countless ways. ” My life is quiet now, and I'm actually having a great time,” he admitted. “People don't believe me, but I love life. I love being with my family. I love being with Tracy. I love not doing a lot of useless things that I used to do, because I don't have the energy or the time.”