The pop star opened up about her struggles with depression and claimed she lost her identity upon learning of fame.
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Lady Gaga at the MTV VMA 2020 (Reuters)
Stefani Germanotta spoke about her struggle with depression and her challenging journey to love herself. In an emotional interview with CBS's Lee Cowan, 34-year-old Lady Gaga touched on her internal battle to become her alter ego.
“My biggest enemy is 'Lady Gaga,'” the singer said. “You can't go to the supermarket. If you go to dinner with your family, someone comes to the table, you cannot have dinner with your family without it being about you, it is always about you. It's all about you all the time. “
The pop star shared that her latest album, Chromatica, offers an honest look at a dark stage in her life, in which she faced mental problems. “There isn't a song on that album that isn't true, not a single one, ” he told Cowan.
For example, Gaga said that the letter for “911” is a “reference to the medication she had to take when she used to panic about being Lady Gaga.” When asked about those particular moments she alludes to in Chromatica, Gaga said she had reached a point where she “totally gave up [on herself].”
“I hated being famous, I hated being a star, I felt exhausted and drained,” she said. “It's not always easy if you have mental problems for other people to see,” Gaga continued. “I used to injure myself (…) I didn't think anyone could see because mental health is invisible.”
The “Stupid Love” singer also revealed that she used to have suicidal thoughts “every day”.
“I really didn't understand why I should live longer than to be there for my family, ” he shared. “That was a real thought and feeling, why should I stay?” “I lived in this house while people watched me for a couple of years to make sure I was safe,” he said.
Gaga explained that her biggest trigger was being bombed in public. “If I'm at the grocery store and somebody gets really close to me and puts a cell phone to my face and starts taking pictures, I go into a total panic, pain all over my body. I am prepared because I am very afraid, ”she shared. “It is as if it were an object, not a person.” Still, Gaga knew she had to go on and create music. “I swear on my future children, I don't know why, but I have to, ” he said.
“Turns out, even if I want to be alive, I still know how to write a song,” she added. Since the launch of Chromatica, Gaga told Cowen that she “found a way to love [herself] again.”
“I don't hate Lady Gaga anymore,” he shared. “Now I look at this piano and say, 'Ugh, my God, my piano, my piano that I love so much. My piano that lets me talk, my piano that allows me to do poetry. My piano that is mine.'
Lady Gaga with her boyfriend (Reuters)
In the latest issue of People magazine, Gaga also spoke about how she used music to bring her out of a dark place in her life. “I used to wake up in the morning and realize it was 'Lady Gaga'. And then I got really depressed and saddened, and I didn't want to be myself, ” she said, “I felt threatened by the things my career brought into my life and the rhythm of my life ”.
The Grammy, Golden Globe and Oscar winner has been candid about how, for years, she focused on her music rather than overcoming the emotional and physical trauma she suffered after a sexual assault early in her career. And he has said that before he started working at Chromatica, he was battling post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and fibromyalgia. ” I spent a lot of time in a kind of catatonic state of just not wanting to do anything ,” Gaga said. “And then, finally, I slowly started making music and telling my story through my album.”
In Mexico, the National System of Support, Psychological Council and Crisis Intervention by Telephone (SAPTEL) offers telephone assistance 24 hours a day at the number: 0155 5259-8121. In the United States, you can dial + 1-888-628-9454.
At the Buenos Aires Suicide Assistance Center, they attend to anyone in crisis on the free lines 135 from Buenos Aires and GBA or at (54-11) 5275-1135 24 hours a day. There is also the Center for Attention to the Family of the Suicide (CAFS): Tel. (011) 4758-2554 ( email@example.com – www.familiardesuicida.com.ar ).
In the United States, there is the National Suicide Prevention Network to ask for help; You can call 1-888-628-9454 or 1-800-273-8255, the National Suicide Prevention Service line, to speak with someone who will provide free and confidential support 24 hours a day, seven days of the week. The CDC also recommends its own policies, programs and prevention practices.